What To Do?

There used to be a point when I could consider my life as busy and complicated, yet manageable. There was a sort of beautiful chaos to it all. That is no longer the case. I feel like so many aspects of my life have spun out of control - whether through fault of my own or not - that I truly have no idea what to do anymore.

Some parts of my life have become so time-consuming that I honestly don't have enough to get everything I need done. Others have become so complicated that I don't know how to make sense of anything anymore. And lastly, one part of my life feels like it's simply become stagnant, which has just been making me depressed. That's probably the part that affects me the most. It shouldn't, but I can't help it and it's tough to feel like I can control the things I need to when I feel down.

Lost Thoughts

What happens to all the lost thoughts we have, but can't later remember? Do they go to some cosmic lost and found, hoping someone will come by to reclaim them? Or do they simply cease to exist?

Right before I fell asleep last night, I had a great thought. At the time, I was way too sleepy to actually get up and make a note of it somewhere, but I knew I wanted to remember it later and in semi-conscience state told myself not to forget it. Sure enough, when I woke up, I couldn't remember what the thought was. I remember having a thought, I remember that the thought was important, and I remember to what the thought pertained, but I don't remember the thought itself. It actually makes me a little sad.

I miss you, thought. Please come back to me.